my life in "raw" edition

there’s 2 men i’ve been missing and thinking of quite a lot lately, some of you may think that its crazy of me to be missing men (not that i’m gay or anything, no offence). anyways, the 2 men i’ve been missing and thinking of quite a bit recently is my late father and also a great friend of mine daniel ross.

i’ve never really had the best father son relationship in my life. my dad was a hard man and he only knew how to show love by giving money, well not that money is not good, but as a person with emotions, i wished i had more from him. it is of great fortune n blessings that i was introduced to a spiritual Father which i found solace during a young age and hence my utmost dependence upon HIM. it’s now coming to 3 years since my physical dad passed away, and recently i keep thinking about him to the extent i sometimes miss him. i wonder if my kids would miss me when i’m gone or would they be too busy with their lives, i do hope they will remember me. makes me think that the chinese tradition of remembering their passed away loved ones once a year, not a bad idea after all, well, i know they’re in heaven, but just spending time as a family to remember them isn’t that bad i presume. anyways, i do hope that my dad is enjoying himself in heaven and i just wanna let him know that i do miss him, luv u dad!!!

the other guy that i’ve really been missing quite a bit is daniel ross, we’ve not known each other for decades, but the relationship we’ve had over that last 2-3 years was awesome. together, we can talk crazy stuff, do crazy stuff, dream crazy stuff. we both love good food and spend a lot of time eating and we both also have big dreams and love to dream together. seeing his life encourages and motivates me, theres a lot of NATO (no action talk only) people that i’ve known, but daniel is definitely not one of them, whether it is a challenge, a promise, a ministry, an action of love, reaching out to people, etc etc, he is always the action man and he encourages people around him to join in the action as well. maybe we’re both young and naive, but i think this is what the world needs sometimes, simplicity n naiveness. we live in a world so full of complexity nowadays it actually suffocates us and people around us. being with daniel, we think positive, we believe faith works, and we just push on and move on. he’s gone back to the US and also travelling to other parts of the world for about 6 months now, and in this time, i can’t seem to find someone like him that i can fully relate to, of course there are mentors whom i have that i can always chat n pour my heart out, but with him, it’s different, i really hope to see him soon, even if it is just for a few days. we used to joke that he’s an american on the outside and a malaysian on the inside, while i am a malaysian on the outside and a american on the inside, he’s my american version and i’m his malaysian version, now that he’s not around, i somehow lost a piece in me that i will or will not find back, we leave that to God. hope to be seeing him soon, i miss u bro !!!

saw this in rojaks blog and i nearly laughed my pants off, even though it is meant to be a joke, i really think that the guys in proton should really take this with a pinch of salt. the fact that they had to come out and defend themselves about the new inspira, already tells you that they really made a mistake and they’re just trying ever so hard to cover it up. malaysians today are no more the same as they used to be, they’re smarter, wiser, more knowledgeable, and can differentiate between real and a imitation, buck up proton!!! anyways, do enjoy the following:

in·spira
[ Pronounced as : in-spi-Lah!]
verb, -spiraED, -spira·ing, -spira.able

Meaning :

• inspira – to copy something.
• inspira.ED – alredi copy something,
• inspira.ing – copying something.
• inspira.able – Copyable

Example :

inspira
- I hate it when ppl inspira me! she keep inspira my fashion sense bcoz she knew i am a fashionita!

inspira.ED
-Mother : son you finished your homework edi?
- Son : Yes mum … I inspira.ed my homework from my fwen in skool edi.

inspira.ing
-Student : Tcher Tcher! u see ah kau is inspira.ing my answer leh!

inspira.able
- Car designer : Boss! I tink this lancer is inspira.able leh!

in regards to the new proton inspira, i would say that i am totally speechless. not speechless in a good way in which some might say it looks good, but speechless in a bad way where i am extremely disappointed with proton. many many years ago when proton was first launched, i could still understand why it needed to copy mitsubishi cars, becoz it was new and needed to learn. many years later, proton designed its very own waja, followed by a few more other models including, savvy, satria neo, gen 2, persona, the new saga and the exora. even though proton didn’t come out with the best looking cars, it was definitely moving on the right track.

one would ask, why would you wanna turn back and start from square one again? especially when you finally got on track. why does proton need to go back to square one and copy other cars again, why would they wanna make a mockery of themselves by telling the world that we malaysians cannot design cars and need to resort to copying others? malaysians are not stupid, in fact they are so talented they get recognition worldwide for their skills and talents.

proton management need to check themselves, they better buck up, having the guts to call something that they copied from others inspira is a real mockery, inspira resembles “inspiration”, how can malaysia be inspired to copy others, malaysia is better than that, i am truly speechless, disappointed and to a certain extent angry. i hope the world will not misunderstand malaysians as copycats becoz of proton, malaysia is better than that, we are creative, innovative and inspirative, just that proton forgot to hire us!!!

i love mountains, i have always did, even until today, if u let me see the mountains, i will kinda have an attachment feeling to it, dun start calling me tarzan or anything ok? i am not, i am one who just love mountains.

when i was young, i grew up in 2 different type of mountains, mountains of cement and also mountains of nature, i loved the latter. when i said mountaiins of cement, this is what i meant:

to many, these mountains of cements carries with it dreams, wealth and success….to me it sounds more like worries, pressures and torment. however, its not all gloomy and bad, hong kong has things that i love, great food, great shopping, great tv series and its really beautiful especially at night…..

beautiful isn’t it, hong kong definitely has a beauty of its own, not exactly my cup of tea though. now, let me introduce you to the other mountain that i grew up with as well, this is a mountain that i have climbed more than 20 times, mount kk:

its 2 totally different worlds and i for one has really been fortunate to be able to have grown up in both these worlds, thats why i am half a hongkie and half a sabahan. grewing up in sabah was fun, much more fun than hk i would say, and we were always up the mountains…..the weather was great, the air was fresh and the view was spectacular, just plain awesome !!!

coming back to reality, i dun really get to see these 2 type of mountains that frequent anymore, as a compensation, i do get to see this though:

but to me, KLCC is just 2 beautiful towers built by man, it stands strong and tall, definitely an eye catcher. but if you compare it to the nature that God has created, the beauty of the mountains, the magical feeling that it gives you and how it puts u at peace, its incomparable isn’t it ?

i miss the mountains, i really do. i wish that transportation and logistics will be so advanced in future that i would be able to have the best of both worlds, to be a stone throw away from both mountains of cement and mountains of nature, i wish that this dream will come true soonest possible. afterall, who wouldn’t want to wake up to the beautiful nature that God has given us for free every morning?

i developed the hobby of collecting wine when i was in aussie, i was so in love with wine that i nearly bought a small vineyard, but after much advise from people around, i decided to just stick to collecting wine rather than running a vineyard.

over the years, i’ve drank a lot of different type of wines, mostly red and some white. i have different cravings at different times and recently i’ve been craving for a lot of white wine especially peter lehman from barossa valley. this recent crave of white wine also motivated me to finally try the long awaited ice wine which i’ve wanted to try some years ago but never did.

i recently came back from singapore and while at the airport, i saw this ice wine brand peller estates and they were doing a pack of 3 promotion, i told myself that its now or never and so i went ahead and bought it. before i opened my first bottle, i was reading the writing on the bottle and it goes like this:

“Peller Estates Icewine is a rare gift from a magical Canadian winter. Picked at the coldest moment of a winter’s night, each frozen grape creates just one drop of Icewine. One smooth rich, luxurious drop. Every smooth, rich, luxurious drop of Peller Estates Canadian Icewine is at its best when it’s served wintery cold and sipped before dessert, with dessert or even as a dessert.”

after years, i can now say i finally tried ice wine and i would say that it is pretty good, it’s very special compared to normal wines, i think ladies  would like it coz it’s pretty smooth and easy to drink. i would definitely add ice wines to my own wine collection now, if you haven’t tried it yet, i would definitely recommend you to try it!!!!

first, it was back to blogging, now it’s back to golf, coming up i have no idea what i will be back to…….anyways, let’s get back to golf. i remember i used to hate golf, i used to think that it such a silly game, the only good out of golf i knew was that business deals could be done over a golf course. some years back, while i was pretty down, a good friend of mine dragged me to a driving range to swing some balls, i din like it initially coz i kept missing the ball n looked like a fool, however, after a few hits, i kinda got hooked and then began my golfing life.

golfing life in australia is amazing, there seem to be courses around every corner and most of them were public courses, which is great coz with a student card, we get to play golf at prices that would make most asian country golf players drool. the other great thing about playing golf in australia is the weather, i for one am known to hate hot weathers and i sweat easily, but this is not a problem in aussie coz the weather is pretty good except for summer.the golfers on the course were pretty good as well, u can make friends easily and everyone was very polite, making it very easy for a beginner like me.

fast forward, and i came back to malaysia, went to the driving range for a few swings and guess what? i sweated so much it was like i just had a shower, crazy weather. next, i played on a course and i really struggled, it was hot and the local players were arrogrant n very impolite (maybe i went to a wrong course), all of these bad news was enuf for me to stop playing.

recently i picked up golf again and maybe becoz i am more mature now, i look at it with a different perspective, i am much more calm and controlled now, i dun complain abt the weather anymore, i begin to appreciate why so many businessman plays golf and i for once am enjoying golf again like i used to in australia, hopefully i dun bump into anymore arrogant n impolite players ( i think this can be solved by choosing the right courses to play) so if any of you wanna go for a couple of swings at the driving range or go to the course for a game, let me know and we can plan for it. hopefully all of you who don’t like golf will begin to like and enjoy this sport, have a nice day all of you!!!

i have always loved to see things from above, seeing things from height is really beautiful, u can see far and wide, it has no boundaries and the sense of freedom is awesome. from sitting on a plane, to climbing mountains, rock climbing, rooftops of tall buildings n towers, it has really been experiences that i have loved. now i would love to try paragliding, i believe its gonna be a good experience, i think i would love the feeling of floating in the air, free n easy, beautiful scenaries right b4 my eyes, i am so hoping that i can paraglide one day, and i hope this day will come soon…..

beautiful isn’t it ?

a fisherman while lying down on the beach with his friend was chatting about life, his friend told him “u know, since ur doing pretty well, u should buy more boats and lease it out to other fishermen who will fish for you, before long, u will make it rich and u can lie down on the beach everyday n relax.” the fisherman turned to his friend and said, “ain’t i already lying down on the beach now n relaxing?”

moral of the story, be content with life, simplicity is the best !!! have a nice day all of you!!!

i know it’s a bit late to talk about this show, but guess what? i just only watched the show on dvd and there’s a reason or two why i waited till so late. firstly, i missed it when it was in the cinema, 2ndly, my regular dvd supplier who is very very strict with dvd’s that he sells to me (only 100% clear only he sells to me one) only got his supply like 2 days ago. so it explains why i watched it so late

anyways, i dun exactly watch every cartoon that is out there, i am pretty selective, even this show “how to train your dragon” i din really intend to watch in the beginning, i bought more for my boys to watch, but while i was watching with them, i kinda got hooked to the show and i think it is a pretty good cartoon afterall, a lesson to remember, never judge a book by its cover, hahahhaha

recently as i watch movies or shows, i always try to find a lesson to learn from it and as for this show, the biggest lesson i learnt is this “we humans are our own biggest enemy”, we are sometimes so selfish that we destroy everything that is around us for our own benefit. it leads me to think that if only every human being on this earth can show a little kindness n love, this world WILL definitely be a better place !!! i am hoping n dreaming that one day our world will really be a better place, i hope u share the same dream too, so let’s just show a little kindness n love wherever we are and whenever we can. have a nice day all of y ou !!!

after much procrastination, i decided to start blogging again last week, did you hear me wrong when i said last week? no you didn’t, some might ask how come i only post today when i said i wanted to blog last week? well, here it goes:

1. i din know how to update my wordpress via my own portal (cpanel) and i was frustrated that i couldn’t load videos last time

2. so i decided to remove wordpress and install nuclues

3. i had problems installing nuclues so i tried joomla

4. again, problems with joomla and i switched to b2evolution, i tot i liked it, but couldnt do blogroll or maybe i not smart enuf

5. and so i finally changed to wordpress again only to realise there is a update wordpress button inside my cpanel, and now i can upload videos, wooohoooo !!!!

problem is, during the course of trying out new softwares, i needed to correspond with my isp provider via email of what my problems are, so on and so forth and it took time, i even lost a lot of data in the midst of this. now i would say that the blog is running at 80% capacity with a few more minor glitches to be fixed, nonetheless, i decided to quickly blog this post out before i start procrastinating again.

so, hopefully you will be seeing more regular post from me considering i have so many devices around me that is always connected to either wifi or data, how i wish there is a software that can update twitter, facebook and blog all at the same time

anyways, give me a day or 2 more to sort out all the glitches in the blog and u will see me back blogging again, happy reading and have a nice day !!!